the meth diaries~the excuse

 
slip inside
& get lost here
the devil has me by the throat
it's name crystal meth
 
i'm trembling on the inside
Christmas is coming
& I have to be clean
 
afraid of the come down
what if I can't  
will I go around my family high?
 
my mom is a nurse she will know
if my eyes are dilated
looking like two full moons
 
I reason within myself
that it was first used  
as a depression cure
 
i'm depressed
so what the hell?
 
i'm not sure where i'm going
my future is unsure
I hope I don't self destruct
slip sliding on the ice