undoings

i was just there  
when candles went bare  
when there was just a stare  
when I was fixated , yet unprepared  
 
and i was just standing  
there  
with too many cares
in times when I would dare  
speak the words, but  
blocked by  all I've learnt
my diffidence, my hesitance
 
like who i am  
when walking through  
the world  
 
like who i was  
when i became  
undone, unfurled  
with the winds  
blowing my dreams  
whispering deep things  
undoing my openings