Look the other way

Its as if something plummets in my gut
Who wants to be feeling  
these feelings now,
in the dead of night.
Where eyesight is black and introspective
Locked in a head filled with recollection
 
She must let me outlive this
She must turn her back on me
Have babies ,live happily
And let me brake myself away from being "Hers"
I'm done with everything
Fuck this tangled string,she kept reeling me in on.
Fuck that sunlight on her skin,that made me idolise her.
I'm depleted
Devoid of what is needed
I only have my bones now
Devoted everything humanly impossible to give.
Remembering what she forgets,
and then she ends up with someone else
 
She rides off into the sunset,
on the back of his horse
And forgets all the nights before
 
I don't want to live anymore.