Good Enough

I wonder where my mind is
Every now and then I start to wonder if I'm mindless
Confidence shot, and I know where the nine is
My own right hand, ain't no doubt about who fired it
I'm an expert at harping on my shortcomings
Nit-picking on 'em til I'm on the porch sulking
Aiming for perfection but those efforts always brought nothing
Years of attempts, but no progression seems forthcoming
I tell myself one day I’ll make the changes
Add to what I'm lacking, raise my game up
Been avoiding these voids, these vacant spaces
Hoped they'd vanish in time, but it's taking ages
So it's a burden that I carry, I put the straps on
And search for solace in rock or rap songs
To help me back up for the 8th time and stand strong
But every morning's like a black dawn
 
So it seems like...
 
Nothing's ever good enough
"StreetRabbit, thinks he's too good for us
Rabbit's emo, he ain't in the hood enough"
How 'bout he's just misunderstood to us
Tension builds, temptations abound
So I get another stroke and now my face is on the ground coz
Just one wasn't good enough
Even when I fell in love, it wasn't good enough
The hottest girl wouldn't be good enough
All the cash in the world ain't good enough
Coz you can go your hardest for your friends
But like you, they're only human so they may not understand that
I used to always think that I was good enough
Until I figured out that I wasn't good enough
So instead of being good enough
I just wanna be better than good enough