Me

Like a car accident within me
All my choices crush and collide
Easy to say I'm the cause of it all
When you're viewing it from the outside
Always a battle within myself
Should I explain or I shouldn't have to
Why would you tell someone of the things that cause your downfall
When you know they can't catch you..?
Like is it purposeless?
Or should I let them try to understand
Why with the simplest things, simplest answers
Its a struggle, it's an "I can't"
I tell him the good parts of my life
Before everything went south
Thinking he's listening, comprehending
When he's really fantasizing about my mouth
"Damn those lips are big
Damn, they look so soft"
Shared my pain, shared my life
And niggas don't even listen at all
A sex thing, a sex object
All they think of Jada as
Tell em about how I'm trying to get a grip on my life
While they're trying to grip on my ass
How'd your desires label me?
How are you saying I'm things that I've never been?
Fuck it, I know me better than you ever will
Thats a debate that you'll never win
You don't know me at all
You're just familiar with my presence
But I'll take responsibility for you, like a Ouija
I can't be mad at the demons that I've let in
But I'm aware now...
It's not my fault for misperceptions on your end
We both made assumptions of one another
I'm a hoe to you while I thought you were a friend
You underestimated me while I was overestimating you...
How you say you're the realest nigga out here
But still can't manage to stay true?
How come you chased after me
And still ain't get you no tail?
How can you become so bitter
Because all of your efforts have failed?
I thought when you fucked up
You're supposed to come back better and stronger
But instead your chaotic and beastly
Like a descendant of the Mongols
But I've already moved forward
My conscience just likes to stay clear and free
And its just my personality
To help when people fall and skin their knees
But you can't help everybody
Not everyone has the same heart as you do
You can show someone the most love
And they'll still manage to despise you
You can say I ain't shit but I'm everything
I'm terrible but my heart is golden
Yeah you're sweet but you're too costly
Like bath and body works lotion
But in the midst of everything
I still remain solid and grounded
I manage to force out the toxicity
That I find myself surrounded
Not one person on this earth
Got control or a handle on me
I might sink and drown at times But I'll always remember how to breathe..
You should try it.