How do you love me?

How do you love me
I am a child and yet
I am as womanly as twenty
I am 13, don't forget

How do you love me?
When my lips are red and pout-y
and my breasts are heavy
my eyes smolder-y?

I don't know what love means
Is it the way my brother in law
ride me, and suck me like mints
Fucking me and wanting more?

Or is it when my mother dear
Slaps my face and whacks my rear
When I look into her eyes
Begging silently for surcease?

Is love the way my sister's girlfriend
Kiss me long and hard on my lips
Suckled my nipples,hands clamped
on mouth, ignoring my flowing tears?

Is love the way the man of God
Fucks me in his sanctum cubiculum
Praising the Lord so loud
When he jerks into me, his come?

Is love the way that beggar in the park
Look at me with sad rheumy eyes
Patting me slowly on the back
saying, "You are a child in darkness"

He says I should run away
From the people I call family
Seek proper sanctuary
Then the police took him away

They say he was a madman
Who ran away from the sanatorium
I turn and walk away
To the people I call family

How do you love me then
How will I love you
Will I meet you even
The one that's meant for me?