I could be... (Spoken Word transcript)

If I could be anything,
I'd be free.
If I could do anything,
I'd just be me.

In this life, so full of strife.
It seems to me,
that the hardest thing to be
is simply happy.

I hope this is just me
So I could hold all the suffering.
But I see everything but happy around me.

I see angry and mad
And hungry and sad
Child without dad
No family grad-
uates
But barbiturates.

I can scarcely handle it.
Minds & bodies want to quit
Families don't just split;
They shatter like a glass hip.
Leavingeveryonewishingforadip of happiness that always slips.

Away, unlike the pain.

Should I pray?
To heal the brain or end the pain?
To heal the pain or end the brain?
When aren't they the same?
WHY are they the same!?
...what to do with this shame?

Best to claim that everything is fine.
Best to hide the pain, remember never cry.
Best to...
Best to...

Why lie? I won't lie. I will cry. I won't die on the inside.
I will heal my brain and my pain and the pain of my brain.
I'll help others to do the same.
Maybe if I make the change
Others or I can claim:

to be free

to. be. me.

to. be.

hap-py.