Coming back

After the first night, I wondered in my mind
The next day, I didn't know what to do
The weeks that followed, were like holes in time
A month later, I still thought of you
 
Rotting away  
Felt like death
Nothing was right
I had nothing left
I swear that I could see through my flesh
I couldn't fit into life
I called myself less
 
A few months passed and I saw you
Living like you were never wrong
While I was barely making it, you made it
You grew strong
It felt like you stuck a needle in my eye
I just couldn't see
Couldn't understand why
 
I could feel so much of me dying
It was like I handed me over in a sack
You butchered me and left me for dead
Its been almost a year and now I am coming back
 
I fed the lies to the fire
I gave away what little I owned
All that you gave to brand me
I gave away, its long gone
My beating rock that used to be a heart
That thing cracked right in two
The sleepless torment made me tired
Everything for you I have gone through
 
Off with my head
Your cut was swift and sharp
I bled out and you thought I was done
This is the interesting part
You just left me there severed
I would have never done you like that
Its alright, I am healing
I am coming back
 
The smile was hard to find
My strength, I had to build
Gathering all of my thoughts
Deciding what was really real
Laughing, I have come to do
I dream again too
I have had some time to think
Most of these new thoughts have nothing to do with you
 
I take the blame
I have forgiven myself for loving you and all of that
You left me for dead
Its time
I am coming back