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[ On Drawing ] The Self Taught Artist
Drawing is a hobby that comes
natural to me to a degree;
I tend to disagree to agree
with anyone saying I am gifted
However, I will eagerly concur
as far as being a Teacher goes
I was a poor Substitute
Referring to myself as a
self taught artist
is easier than explaining
I learned the fucking hard way
rather than deferring to experts
knowledgeable on said subject
throughout the years
Likewise educated in self defense )
I blame that on no one
showing any interest in
dispensing the lessons
I needed to learn
likely due to a general lacking of
interest in me as a person
so many years ago
Decades to be precise
I was on my own
conditioning myself
not to screw up artwork
labored over tirelessly for hours
ironically
resulting in far more
poorly executed sketches
than I care to remember
Eventually I discovered
upon further self examination
---no doubt performed by the psychiatrist
I sometimes fancy myself as---
fear of failure
led to incalculable
over-compensations;
muscles and tendons
in left arm, wrist and hand
became rigidly tensed
burrowing pencil tips
so deep into paper that
erasing a mistake was damn near
impossible
and
believing I should be drawing
everything in my mind despite
what was right in front of my eyes
The most important lesson
I ever learned regarding
any creative pursuit including
this rendered life of mine?
Relax, enjoy the process
appreciate what you are
presently in the presence of
and Trust in everything
turning out fine
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