Trapped inside me

Pick apart the parts of me
What do you see ?
Well I guess first you ought to know me
I'm ugly inside just a beast
This skin lies to your eyes
These green eyes trick your mind
I'm just a monster in human clothes
There are secrets I've never told
To any living soul
Locked up inside they hide growing mold
I've felt the insanity of true love
Had to choose between life or death
Been cornered trapped out of breath had my courage put to the test
Felt my knife  up under a neck
 the warm blood running down my wrist
The screams
The cops
The judgement
My loss
Time I can never get back
People I will never hear talk
Lost lives
Missed dreams
The demons inside me
The fire I breathe
The souls that I reap
The chaos I seek
It follows me like a creep
Breathing down my neck
How long will this feeling last
I can't breathe I'm under attack
I'm trapped inside this mind
And I'm drowning fast