Disappointment

All the voices in my head just bring me down  
All I hear is them scream and shout  
I wish I could just tear them out  
All the memories  
Of you and me  
All the beautiful I should have never seen  
All the love you give me I don't deserve  
 
I can never let you down  
Even if it means that I drown  
I love you fiercely you hold me up even when my darkness burns me up  
 
You're an angel but I'm a demon  
And I don't want to burn you
Your everything I've wanted  
I think it's why I shut you out  
Push you away and out of my heart  
I don't want to infect you with all of this dark
 
It slithers in me  
It pumps thru my veins indefinitely
Its my curse to carry  
My burdens to bury  
Its not your cross to bare for me  
 
I think I'm just hurting you  
I know I'm not good enough for you  
I'm so confused  
What's right and what is wrong  
 
But I can never give up on you  
I think I'm addicted to you
I will let you drain me leaving me empty  
Getting your fill and what you need of me  
Then Just to forget about me  
Without even a memory  
Leaving me colder  
Just praying for my ending  
And death to face me  
I'll spit in his face
 screaming I don't want to live make me  
Take me now or I'll start opening arteries
This flesh  
This life
mean nothing to me