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Vanishing

Don't let me vanish.    
The wind attempts to whip me away.
I'm lost...  
Alone  
I look at you and ache.  
I ache...
 
My mouth says whatever comes to mind.
It becomes the raging wind.
The wind that attempts to whip me away.
 
I can't say the things I should say.
I can't seem to find a comfortable filter.
I'm Loosing you...
That terrifys me against my better judgement.
 
See I've managed to fall again into depressions' waiting mouth.  
This time I need some help.
Its frustrating.  
Its devouring me.
Its a personal storm.
It blows my voice box into a web.  
It traps me like a spider does to its choosen prey. It makes the fight in my soul come out to play.
 
It makes me anxious that I'm doing everything wrong.
I'm expecting an attack, so my brain preemptively attacks.  
Its humiliating.  
Makes me wish I would vanish.  
Just vanish...  
 
That the wind would transform me into ash so it can blow me away.
Suddenly I feel your arms wrap around me... And I'm confused by the motives dancing in your eyes.  
I turn and look into your face,
And I don't want to be a pile of ash anymore.  
 
Unfourtantly I'm stuck.  
Im reaching out to you,
Help me out of this black hole I've been blown into again.
Its too deep this time.
Its teeth are razors against my skin.  
 
I'm reaching out for your hope.  
I'm needing a comrade.  
I'm needing my partner in crime.
Please find me in the dark
I'm realizing I was never intended to fight alone.

Jadedembers
Written by Jadedembers (Starving Demons)
Published | Edited 23rd Sep 2019
Author's Note
Copyright 2019
Laura Behrmann (a.ka jadedembers). All Rights Reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted
in any form, or by any means, including...
Copyright 2019
Laura Behrmann (a.ka jadedembers). All Rights Reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, distributed, or transmitted
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All my poetry is copyrighted and stored in an author base. All material subject to Copyright infringement laws
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Act, 17 U.S.C. S512(c)(3), Laura Behrmann (a.ka jadedembers)
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