anhedonia/eudaimonia

A sliver of light is broadened on my floor.
Minimum specks of energy are flying through their vacuum
approaching me daringly;
I suck them inside me..
My physical body is totally worn out.
My mind and heart doubt.
My frail blood circulates slowly in my veins.
I'm not supposed to be here.
My real self awaits

Aches of the head and spasms of the spine.
Vibes' attack
Paroxysm of luck
Implicit seizures that petrify my bone.
And then I'm gone. Long now gone.

That spectrum that shines caught violently my eye.
This lonely night is mine.
Prayers series to man made deity gods
to grant me a favor,
to be the eliminator of my ego forms.
Broken pieces of a person that used to be me.
New wings' arrival and new eyes to see.
the world's transformation.
I'm grateful for thy.

Be that as it may, I'm still on the ground,
whereas my focus is parallel to that.
Humanity's beauty is prospering fast.
A gift that is lost.
Lucky are those who know the cause.