"My Current Status"

[Lost in my thoughts its and everyday routine...
 
Pain in my heart its a common thing....
 
sarrow in my eyes its a usual sight....
 
Chaos in my ears its a non-stop sound..
 
i dont know how to get a hold of myself...
 
i have tried to change...
 
but its takes me no where of comfort...
 
 so i find myself...
 
to that unbreakable chain...
 
that keeps me down in everyway...
 
i say its them....but i ts only me
 
who keeps doing this so i cant seemed
 
to breath...
 
i need a break from it.. all
 
i need a space i can call my own
 
i need a room to leave all my thoughts
 
i need a new set of eyes that will see nuthin  
 
but light....
 
i need some peace in my heart...
 
i want to live for all of those i matter...
 
but its hard to stop when
 
this is all i know.
 
the pain i have adapted too..
 
and the sarrow i cant leave without
 
the crazy thoughts i follow..
 
wont be too happy  
 
to know... the truth behind it all...
 
is to become my own Leader is all i want but this voices are in charge....
 
so someone plz teach me how.
 
ill admit i need help....
 
i cant do this on my own...so i will
 
 surrender now b4 it becomes too late
 
and i wont be able to find my way
 
back home to that happy place...
 
that i onced destroyed with my stubborn
 
ways....
 
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