don't touch

Self-mutilation on the inside... maybe this is why I do what I do. Maybe deep down inside I enjoy my suffering and just can't admit it to myself...  
This made me think!
JJ

thank you dearest JJ I am happy to make you ponder pain is something I learned to accept at at a very young age.. ~Raven

I don't think accepting pain is a good thing. It is definitely not a good thing at a very young age when we have no choice. That's abuse. Choosing it as an adult happens through conditioning, often from abuse as a child. It is very hard to fight and becomes a way of life. I don't like that I have given up fighting it but I have had physical pain from within my own body that has become emotional and mental pain because of the limitations my physical pain places on me. Physical pain from others is not a thing I will ever accept. The mental and emotional pain seems to happen in every relationship I've ever had, so now I choose not to have relationships in the real world. I've been alone for most of the past 34 years and likely will be for the remainder of my days. For me that is a painful choice to keep the level of pain at a tolerable level. I control my pain by not allowing others to intensify it. So DUP is one of my realities now. It's easier to pretend this is reality than to deal with the emptiness my life is filled with. JJ

dearest JJ thank you for your deep compassion I agree children should never be abused or neglected but sadly they are I was abandoned at age three by my mom & while most children would cry to be comforted when hurt playing if someone would run to help me i'm remember shouting no don' touch me.. I understand your self acceptance of pain & how you deal with it I tend mine here too.. ~Raven

I really like the 5th stanza
"I feed it memories
that spark anger & regret
the inferno rages
& is out of control "

this one particularly stands out to me.

also the opening line
"my pain is felt
sheltered & nurtured"
catches really well.
excellent write, keep'em coming smackdownraven.

thank you dearest poet I am looking at it now & wish I could change to..  

"I feed it memories  
that my spark my anger  
the inferno rages  
& is out of control  
still i've no regrets"  

my flow is a bit off lately I'm happy the message wasn't altered by this..  

~Raven

This is a beautifully written piece. I really enjoyed reading it and feeling everything you have written about. I especially love. "the inferno line rages" line and that whole stanza.

thank you dearest poetess such a kind & beautiful soul you have.. ~Raven

I know this will sound redundant and well it should, for this is yet another outstanding write.
It shows all the qualities I have come to expect from you. The honesty, crafting and presentation of a fine poetess, a gift not common.

Keep your pain close if it in someway comforts, but be prepared to let it go when the time comes, and it will, that you are ready to let it dwell quietly and bloom into the person I know awaits.

An enjoyed read, not for the content, but for the beauty of it's quality.

thank you lovely Teri you always move my heart deeply with your beautiful comments.. I know some day I will have to let go of my friend pain.. I deeply appreciate your wonderfully insightful thoughts.. ~Raven

genius and troubled one

two sides

same coin.

expression.

moving.

job.

poet.

thank you graciously dearest poet for the gracious comment you have bestowed upon me..  ~Raven

I have a hard time with being told not to do something, but in this case, I'm gonna listen because you look alot tougher than me...lol...

Seriously, an outstanding piece of ink letting

thank you dearest poet aw i'm much softer than I may seem.. ~Raven

Tis' the kind of pain that doesn't kill you until you try running away from it so I'm glad you're keeping it close... Allowing yourself to feel it in such a way is in my opinion allowing yourself the beginning of healing.

Beautiful <3

thank you dearest poetess yes you're right running does no good better to embrace it & give it a home.. ~Raven

Your voice gives rise to my sentimental rhythms strumming inside.
Very unique and distinctively beautiful. I heart you darling.

thank you beautiful soul for feeling this with me.. ~Raven

dearest poetess you have understood the essence of this write perfectly.. giving me new insight to why it is important to remember pain's cuts.. thank you.. ~Raven

love you beautiful poetess said with a big smile on my face from the love you've shown me :) ~Raven

I find many times there are behaviors we have become accustomed to from an early age, not knowing any better and we stick to those behaviors because of their being comfortable...not necessarily because they are the right choice...this ink brings thought to ponder about that...is there ever a way to truly know? Interesting and revealing ink indeed...

Xoxo Taryn