The Next Day

   
The Morning After...    
   
[lethargicreflections]    
   
today    
sedated    
frayed    
awoke before    
the day    
had started    
tears linger    
no leaner    
than before    
memory    
of you    
last night    
couldn’t fight    
anymore    
caved in again    
   
hollow    
swallow    
my heart whole    
choke    
on the pieces    
shove it down    
perma-frown    
can’t hide    
truth leaks    
from my eyes    
you awake    
and I...    
   
I hurry away    
another day    
don’t address    
the distress    
pressing issue    
I won’t tell you    
you can’t make me    
shake me    
name me    
I don’t care    
I am numb    
call me dumb    
go away    
or decay    
I don’t need you    
   
...purging poetry  
coping    
with the pain
my disdain  
for you grows    
   
   
Later That Evening...    
   
[grief]    
   
waves cascade    
straight malaise    
am I up or down    
can’t count    
tally and pace    
strung along    
made to stay    
while you lecture    
respect your tenure    
unworthy of praise    
avoid your gaze    
just can’t proclaim    
my fetters    
your disdain    
is more worthy    
of subject    
   
this dance again    
ripping raw    
bone and saw    
sorrowful pause    
you escalate    
I withdraw    
protect my heart    
know what’s coming    
oh so cunning    
you fall    
remorse proclaimed    
penance in vain    
unaccepted    
I turn away
 
I turn away    
I leave you  
...unforgiven  
   
   
11 Days Later...    
   
[fact]    
   
I cry...    
words    
left inside    
instead I said    
‘okay’    
yet again    
cause this    
is real life    
and it’s so    
much    
more    
complicated    
than the rage    
that fills this page    
   
convinced    
I stay    
with you still    
how many times?    
what’s wrong or right?    
how many lies    
can I inscribe    
until I...    
realize    
just don’t    
want to think    
so many years    
gone by    
   
does love    
ever grow    
from lost souls?