Dark

I'm drowning
Slowly but surely

I am lost
I can not find my way

I cant see
The dark has covered everything

I am depressed
Not in the way you would think

I am physically unable to feel anything anymore I no longer crave happiness because I have accepted it's absence as a statement a bold forever

I cry for myself I see myself and can't make out any features anymore I am but a blurred apparition there is nothing to me anymore I am fading away

The dark has spread over my scars and my once full read heart is an empty and ashen hole

It started with my skin draining which was nothing to worry but then my feet stopped moving  the music of life no longer inspiring my feet to move now they are black and numb

Then my stomach once craving the flavors of life stopped I couldn't taste I didn't want food there was no reason for me to eat there were no flavors all I taste is black

My arms went next no longer touching the keys or drawing the words in my head my fingers did not strum the strings or write the meanings of the sadness my hands now stubs of nothing no worth turning a ghostly grey

Then went my lungs the fire inside was put out I breathed in the dark my subdued flames. I cough out the ashes of my inside I exhale clouds of dark air

My heart now too is gone It struggled everyday to beat pumping my black blood through my body making me a shell of who I once was I can barely hear it beating the faintness of it almost gone out

The dark has come for my mind now there was always a part of my mind that was black and forgotten but now it is slowly taking over and soon it will be gone soon there will be nothing left of me

I can not be found for nobody knows I'm lost I play an act and I am damn good at it the clothes cover my greying skin polish covers my hands and feet makeup covers my heart and face because now I am smiling and I will forever be happy with it on . The mask I paint comes off only at night when my screams ricochet off the walls and shatter it

I paint a new one on everyday but soon I will not be able to fight my need for sleep it will overcome me with sadness and I will let go