Cluster fuck

You turn my head into a cluster fuck
Making my stomach turn from all the stress
I just want a moment of rest
You're a grown ass women entertain yourself for once
I'm a loner I keep to myself
I keep drama minimum its not good for my health
Got an issue here's a tissue bitch
 There's only so much I can do for you
You get jealous over inanimate objects
... I've never seen that till you
You do your own thing when ever you want
Then when I try to take a night out
You turn into Adolf
Start gassing me with all of your hate talk
Insults and blame blasting off like a Kalashnikov
With me in your targets naw I think ill take off
I don't need it
All the bullshit
Fighting for someone who is cold and hopeless
Depressed resentful vengeful
Its hard keeping it all together
Holding together yours and mine
Acting like I'm just fine
Knowing your going thru some tuff times
Thing is I am to
If you only knew what I deal with in secret
But your to caught up in your own shit to notice me
Dying inside
Breaking down
Shutting down
I'm not atlas
And the weight of the world is crushing my spirit
I wish you would snap out of it
I need a little help carrying this bitch
We were a team
Now I'm playing solo it seems
I want the women I love back
I want this depression to pass
I don't know how much longer I can last
But I'll fight till the death
I'm not giving up
I wish you could see this babygirl
So you knew you were loved
That I try everyday
And I will never give up