Cutting deeper

Another cut and another day
Darkness ensues as the light fades
Slowly becoming emotionally calloused
An urge arises for some self-malice
A razor in my arm isn’t shit compared
To the words I receive near and afar
I love the blood creeping down my arm
Reminding me I’m in control of my harm
Letting my guard down, with clenched fists
I internally scream in small and angry fits
Until the pain throbs and overwhelms
For a short time, madness has taken the helm
When all has subsided, I grasp frim to reality
To my surprise I have not become a fatality
Confined to the twisted fantasy in my mind
That someday I can break free of this bind