Pretending to Pretend

It's always been all about me      
Pretending to pretend      
To satisfy your fantasy      
Could you tell that I was faking?      
     
My muse's verse becomes my curse      
If I plunge deep enough in thought      
Into my own erotic reverie      
I can almost fool my foolish self      
     
Manipulating the hollow scenery      
Then believe I feel you touching me      
But no amount of mind control      
Can inject a solution of hallucination      
     
No lubrication of my imagination      
Will bring a phony climax any closer      
Coming closer to another blue ejaculation      
As my once led zeppelin embraces deflation      
     
Even my ego needs counterfeit inflation      
To accept an existence bereft of stimulation      
Artificial resuscitation can't pump up my simulation      
Any more than blowing air can fellate faux-fornication    
     
Why is intercourse between consenting hearts    
Assumed sexual when they cannot touch their beating parts    
Love shared as soul-mates is a spiritual experience  
Two must enter into to perceive the difference  
 
So I am stranded alone in a field of shooting stars  
A cold and barren asteroid trapped behind imaginary bars
 
Constructing an imaginary fantasy
Drifting through the emptiness of infinity
Insulating my mind from the vacuum of reality
Finding pretend contentment inside faux-sanity