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Why God?
How dare you God!
Why are you doing this now?
I’m furious with you! How can You deliver my soulmate to me at this point. I waited a lifetime. Asking, praying to You, begging !
And now, You have the audacity to dangle them in front of me like a piece of bread to the famished. Like giving sight to a blind person just to have it again taken away.
To me it was a lifeline when I was drowning.
God? Where were you when I was once youthful, more attractive, loveless and all alone. I was searching, waiting for the love of my life, that special mind, body connection with another. That never came. I had so much love and passion to give away. Instead to fill the empty whole I found a substitute. The next best thing…..or was it the worst. Settling for the ‘no name brand’ I suppose one might say.
Lord, how by some twisted turn of events, You injected this beautiful soul, a shining star, symbol of strength that instantaneously lights up my face and my heart. How now, into my damaged life, and withered appearance.
This ‘timing’ thing really is a bitch.
You let me savor a little; an appetizer of what instant chemistry taste like. I had no idea I was starving, until I tasted his existence.
Intensity, magnetism. Pure madness!
Just for me to be robbed of it.
“No!” You say. “He is not yours to keep; just enjoy these memories. That’s all they will be.”
Oh I felt the ecstasy alright, the euphoria. All I ever imagined was in this union, in a great Love. Just for it to abandon me. You God, have that power. To give and to taketh away.
My heart left dissected, to forever bleed. This was my chance, never to be encountered again. My greatest fear of time ticking away. Life fading, body aging. Heart aching.
So I say to you again God, how dare you, introduce me this angel when I haven’t even left this earth yet. Is it another one of your master plans? A strategy perhaps.
I can only vigorously hope and wildly imagine that You will allow us to meet up in Heaven.
A flicker of hope remains.
Maybe then, this ‘timing’ thing will be right.
Why are you doing this now?
I’m furious with you! How can You deliver my soulmate to me at this point. I waited a lifetime. Asking, praying to You, begging !
And now, You have the audacity to dangle them in front of me like a piece of bread to the famished. Like giving sight to a blind person just to have it again taken away.
To me it was a lifeline when I was drowning.
God? Where were you when I was once youthful, more attractive, loveless and all alone. I was searching, waiting for the love of my life, that special mind, body connection with another. That never came. I had so much love and passion to give away. Instead to fill the empty whole I found a substitute. The next best thing…..or was it the worst. Settling for the ‘no name brand’ I suppose one might say.
Lord, how by some twisted turn of events, You injected this beautiful soul, a shining star, symbol of strength that instantaneously lights up my face and my heart. How now, into my damaged life, and withered appearance.
This ‘timing’ thing really is a bitch.
You let me savor a little; an appetizer of what instant chemistry taste like. I had no idea I was starving, until I tasted his existence.
Intensity, magnetism. Pure madness!
Just for me to be robbed of it.
“No!” You say. “He is not yours to keep; just enjoy these memories. That’s all they will be.”
Oh I felt the ecstasy alright, the euphoria. All I ever imagined was in this union, in a great Love. Just for it to abandon me. You God, have that power. To give and to taketh away.
My heart left dissected, to forever bleed. This was my chance, never to be encountered again. My greatest fear of time ticking away. Life fading, body aging. Heart aching.
So I say to you again God, how dare you, introduce me this angel when I haven’t even left this earth yet. Is it another one of your master plans? A strategy perhaps.
I can only vigorously hope and wildly imagine that You will allow us to meet up in Heaven.
A flicker of hope remains.
Maybe then, this ‘timing’ thing will be right.
Published 20th Sep 2017
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20th Sep 2017 5:31pm
This is outstanding work!! Holy shit I wished someone loved me with passion like that , did he say no or you already married ?
Thank you so much. Unfortunately, I was already with someone. But I'm grateful for having experienced that type of love and emotion at least once before I die. Even if we couldn't be together. Otherwise I never would have known what real Love felt like. We all deserve to feel that at least once in a lifetime :) L
20th Sep 2017 10:16pm
Its a trip I'm kinda in the same situation , details slightly different , but same situation practically
20th Sep 2017 10:48pm
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20th Sep 2017 7:12pm
There is a price to be paid for settling. An indebtedness for two or more perhaps. And the payments, never ending, bankrupts the soul of the one who drew upon the account.
I hope there is a heaven, where the note is paid in full.
For everyone's sake I hope you can find solace in the belief.
Excellence write.
I hope there is a heaven, where the note is paid in full.
For everyone's sake I hope you can find solace in the belief.
Excellence write.
20th Sep 2017 7:38pm
Thank you so much. You write such beautiful words, I couldn't have said it any better. I hope there is a Heaven as well. I will hold on to that hope for now. I wish you and everyone her at DU much love, health and happiness always.
20th Sep 2017 8:42pm
I like the idea of blaming others, even more blaming one who no one can question (or, at least get a response from). This type of idea has worked great in the past in tragedies, and later on in works portraying dramatic instances - to whole periods - in the characters lives. In this light, I liked the piece a lot, well structured and consistency in form. Also, well in line with your profile's motto: "Love that we cannot have is the one that lasts the longest, hurts the deepest, and feels the strongest."
20th Sep 2017 10:46pm
Many thanks Takis. As always, i welcome and enjoy reading your comments. Often these feelings come into my head, no matter how old I get. The mind, as long as still intact, does not forget. Sometimes in life there are no answers but we continue to look for reasoning. And of course, someone other than ourselves to blame. Thank you again for reading. :)
