Mom

12 years an 1 month an 17 days ago a monster took ur worldly life from u an from us. That day could never go away no matter how much I pray to heal from ur loss it will always hurt. I don't like to emagin the hurt u felt the pain the panic the scram that could not scream because he cut ur throat. Makes my blood boil detective say u fought back cuz u had a broken nose u tried to fight this monster with all ur might, with more then one wound u still fought...when the ambulance got there u still where alive but ur blood could not be stopped from flowing on to that cold concrete it flowed down into the grass and into the dirt it soaked. The pain u felt the panic I can't emagin people say revenge is good but no in this case... revenge or no revenge, it will always hurt. I have gone through so much in this time that u been away an I know I will go through so much more to with u still gone. That 14 year old girl died that day I lost so much of my pride when they took you away But now I know an hope that when my time comes u will be waiting for me at those gates with ur big smile an a bear hug an I will fill u in on everything u missed out on. I use to be scard of death in the past but now I don't fear it no more because I know when my time comes u will be on the other side waiting on me. Mom a daughters Love is for ever even if that means we are not together.

If you were alive today you would be 65 years old man mom it would have been nice to see you old. 😊

Luke 17:3-4
 3 So watch yourselves. “If your brother or sister sins against you, rebuke them; and if they repent, forgive them. 4 Even if they sin against you seven times in a day and seven times come back to you saying ‘I repent,’ you must forgive them.”

Matthew 12:31 - Wherefore I say unto you, All manner of sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven unto men: but the blasphemy [against] the [Holy] Ghost shall not be forgiven unto men.

So yes I hurt an i forgive u for what u did. I have had to forgive u many times in my heart cuz anger over comes me an reminds me what u took an yes I fall back an let anger get at me but then he works on my heart over an over an i forgive u again an again. He does not say it's easy but he does give me strength to forgive u everytime.