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Im Just trying to be me
The day begins, and here I am
stuck in some far off never been to land
If I had balls, literally ~ I would take a stand
At least I have a few friends left
I hate myself yet smile anyway
someone will have some ignorant shit to say
Dont they give a fuck that I struggle
every minute of every day?
I try to press on, yielding teary eyes
Nails hair and make up hell no
I just want to be one of the guys
Why should I be forced to live out all these lies?
My mind and body Im told are a sin
I dont know even where to begin
Just know that I have fucking feelings too
Cant you see Im a mess just like you?
Im still the same person inside
No longer going to hide
That I am just trying like hell
to be
just me...
Can someone tell me
when will I ever be free?
( inspired by some teens doing their thing, yet I can smell misery 100 miles away...)
stuck in some far off never been to land
If I had balls, literally ~ I would take a stand
At least I have a few friends left
I hate myself yet smile anyway
someone will have some ignorant shit to say
Dont they give a fuck that I struggle
every minute of every day?
I try to press on, yielding teary eyes
Nails hair and make up hell no
I just want to be one of the guys
Why should I be forced to live out all these lies?
My mind and body Im told are a sin
I dont know even where to begin
Just know that I have fucking feelings too
Cant you see Im a mess just like you?
Im still the same person inside
No longer going to hide
That I am just trying like hell
to be
just me...
Can someone tell me
when will I ever be free?
( inspired by some teens doing their thing, yet I can smell misery 100 miles away...)
Published 16th Sep 2017
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16th Sep 2017 3:10am
Honestly, it's really a good read all-in-all, but I can't help but notice the odd structure and rhyme scheme. Very well put together. 8/10~ (That's really good, I rate harshly) ;)
~Ghost
~Ghost
16th Sep 2017 3:57am
16th Sep 2017 4:17am
Im not living any lies, Cos. Just my take on what a certain person would feel like being told not to be themselves. <3
I've been told my whole life who to be , I understand, I don't try to change people, I only try make them aware of the wake they may cause ,the effect on others , loved ones, friends, themselves ,and if there ok with it still then so be it,
16th Sep 2017 5:03am
I hear you Cos. If youre nice to me, Im in. If you suck, well then go fuck yourself. <3
16th Sep 2017 6:55am
Don't tempt me with a goodtime , I like fucking myself , I feel like I'm pretty good at fucking myself up actually, I mean I could get pegged , that sounds more like a punishment..least for me..also I'm nice till I'm disrespected . Then I have no problem being crule.
16th Sep 2017 4:05am
16th Sep 2017 4:16am
Thanks, PS. I tried to put myself in the place of someone being told not to be who they really are after seeing it earlier in the day. <3
16th Sep 2017 7:45am
I really don't understand how some people can be so judgmental. Especially those that use religion to do so. What does it hurt for someone to live their lives the way they want? Can't we just be happy for those that found happiness? It's something I truly will never understand.
Thanks for the add, LK. As a parent we try to be understanding. Me and 1 of my daughters had a deep discussion about this subject due to a specific friend of hers. Other parents think its weird and he cant come around.....I myself questioned it. this poem is what I came up with in the end. I get it.
16th Sep 2017 10:27am
I've been made to feel like I should be as others want my whole life...too bad for them I never did as I was told lol
I was once forced to be someone I wasnt as well years ago. Hence me being here with all you wonderful writers/poets! This write was the end of how I would feel if it were me...love to you Poetik! <3
16th Sep 2017 11:15am
Well said A! I long ago tired of the people in my life telling me to be someone they wanted me to be instead of allowing me o be who I wanted to be. I wrote a poem about that 34 years ago called, "The Family Way". I think most everyone can relate to this from one perspective or another... jj
It pains me to admit this, JJ but this was a difficult write for me and my 14 year daughter was the one that inspired this. She has a super good friend that was born female but is now identifying more male, or even pan sexual. At 14 I knew who I was so how can I question things when its so close to home? Yet as an adult I had to look up what 'pan sexual" even meant. I told my daughter this: If your transgender/pan sexual friend is nicer to you than your so called "normal" friends then good for you for being a beautiful person with a very open mind. Im super proud of her and not so proud of myself. I did question this teen at first. Shame on me. Its not for me to understand, just accept and show kindness. Theres no harm in that, nor a true smile. <3
16th Sep 2017 6:25pm
Mysterious One it is painful when trying to be something your not
& looking for acceptance in all the wrong places
this write hit home for me even at my age I'm doing it
just trying to be me whoever the hell that is..
love you lady..
Crim
& looking for acceptance in all the wrong places
this write hit home for me even at my age I'm doing it
just trying to be me whoever the hell that is..
love you lady..
Crim
16th Sep 2017 9:43pm
Crim, I learned a wonderful lesson about life from my daughter which brought this write on. I myself, and still struggling with some issues so this is dedicated to anyone who has ever been told to be something are not. love you too babe <3
Anonymous
16th Sep 2017 7:52pm
Great job here!! Loved the line "Can't you see I'm a mess just like you?"
16th Sep 2017 9:44pm
I wish it was otherwise, but I don't think anyone can answer that final question. I think true freedom is the ability to be oneself without any doubt. I don't know anyone who's fully capable of this. Anything approaching this kind of confidence is a blessing. I love your poem Mysterious Lady. It really got me thinking....
16th Sep 2017 10:25pm
I agree, Crow. Its so hard just living life let alone being plagued by people telling you that who you think you are is totally wrong...thanks for the insight and thoughts, Crow. <3
16th Sep 2017 10:53pm
I just wish I had the answer I have been looking for that answer for 52 years - maybe we fight everything but that takes commitment and energy -you seem fired up enough to fight to be you then that's what you must do I wish you the best of luck - I am undone - save yourself - sending you lots of hugs :-)
18th Sep 2017 00:18am
Thanks David. Once in a while we all need to tell the general public to just fuck off. <3
Anonymous
18th Sep 2017 2:21am
Fuck everybody. Fuck societal norms. Fuck what anybody thinks anyone else should be. Always be you. Especially you. You're awesome. This poem is awesome too. Poems for fun are great. Poems with meaning are the best, and you hit the nail on the head.
18th Sep 2017 11:42am
Thanks deary. I cant imagine being 14 again and feeling the way some of these kids feel. It sucks and my heart goes out to them. <3
21st Sep 2017 5:25am
Nicely written. There always someone telling is how we should feel how should look, talk and act and it super hard for those going through the teenage years. I hope your poem help them.
21st Sep 2017 11:52am
Thanks DP. Life is hard enough. No one needs to be bossed around on how they feel about themselves. <3
