Welcome Mat at the Gates of Hell?

“Farewell unfair world
Goodbye living hell!
I have always felt unwelcome in the mortal world
I wonder if there will be a welcome mat at the gates of hell?
My whole life has been an epic fail
My whole life I have never done well
Powerless in life there is power in death
Hopeless in life there is hope in death
I am an enigma and mystery to my fellow man
I could not control the start, or change the middle but I can choose the end
I reject life and I embrace death.

I am going to be damned and no one is going to give a damn
I bought paper for this note, an envelope and a stamp
I have been searching my mind for an address to send
My parents are dead
My grandparents are dead
My siblings are dead
I grieve for the wife I never met
I miss the kids I never had
My wrists are leaking blood and my pen is leaking ink
I carved a crucifix on my chest and devil horns on my forehead.

I think Nancy was right in Oliver Twist when she said the only shelter guaranteed is that of a coffin lid.
I posses too much knowledge and I am too emotionally damaged to continue to exist.
I have to end it.
I have to end this.

I have never had a single friend
 So I  leave this letter for a stranger on a Bench
Go on throw it in the bin!
Rubbish that is all I have ever been."

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