i wanted to hold her hand

If this is my lifestyle instead of my life choice,
Then why do you take it upon yourself to strip me of my voice?
Why don’t you understand,
Why I want to hold her hand?
You accuse me of being wrong
Since I don’t follow along.

Does this make your feelings correct?
Is that why you make my thoughts such a wreck?
You make me feel so out of place,
When you can’t even look me in my face.

When I was around I had to wear a mask and hide from you.
I thought you would always stay true.
But now you’ve unveiled the real you.
I don’t think you realize that you’ve hurt me.
Is it so hard to just open your eyes and see?

You tried to lead me to believe that everything is alright,
But yet you sit here with your feelings and begin to fight.
I think sometimes that if I were with a man then maybe you’d still stand,
Stand by my side, forever, that was our plan.

I can no longer censor myself
Or worry about these draining thoughts.
They keep bringing me down,
And it’s all because I want to hold her hand.