Leaning In

  
I thought I knew
how to breathe
you suck it in (up)
and blow it out (off)

easy
simple
mostly
automatic

until
it isn't
until
you can't
until

love
lust
beauty
anxiety

smash you up against the lockers
and there's a knot in your back
an elephant on your chest
and nothing
nothing
else matters
except what you now
simply cannot live without

and that
is when you lean in
gasping