my blood father

one minute your nice as pie telling me all these sweet lies
next your my nightmares my worst fear
twisting my own words into a dagger that you plant in my back
as you clean the wounds you sprinkle your sugar coated  bullshit over it all

you tell me how great i am how you want to meet my friends
then you go off say they come in between us there are not safe anywhere
and i don't love you don't care how i'm a gold digger who wants you dead
and if i don't talk to you that you'd blow off your head

then you say you'll never leave me how your going to be there for me
you tell me that your sober now and how you've changed
but you keep playing those multiplicative games
but you haven't you still use me and hurt me
worst part is i still care even tho you hurt me i still love you i wish i didn't