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what should have been

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none of you know me † †  
& that's my doing † †  
owing to the shame I feel † †  
not of my family † †  
but my choices † †  
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I was a mamma at 15 † †  
chose to keep my daughter † †  
had to hit the streets † †  
cos my family wasn't having it † †  
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I thought I was doing the right thing † †  
keeping my little one with me † †  
she lived in poverty † †  
with a bipolar mom † †  
who couldn't raise her right † †  
due to my mental illness † †  
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today I look back † † †
at the right choice † †  
& know I chose wrong † †  
I had an adoptive family for her † †  
that would have let me see her † †  
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I was selfish & thought of only me † †  
today she struggles † †  
because of my decision † † †
even made me a grandma at 28 † †  
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now I have a granddaughter † †  
fighting to beat the odds † †  
the house always wins † †  
& the streets are mean † †  
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I hope to see some positive † †  
come from my foolishness † †  
instead of raking myself over the coals † † †
of what should have been † †  
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*pic of my daughter & granddaughter † † †
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Copyright © 2017 Crimsin. All Rights Reserved  
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