Vent 17th

 


Both parents violent, anyone could of seen it coming
Not me though a bit green between the ears tender age of 16
Mum killed my step father, 000 called, waiting, brain fade
Blood, blue, red, white lights flashing police cars all over the place
Everyone hanging over the fence, watch action, police everywhere

Mum went to jail, out on the street no place for me to go
One week on my own in that house where it all went down
A seemingly nice lady took me in to her house number 89
Judged by others, thought she had my back, now that's a joke
Years pass I had grown enough to just walk away, holly shit

I seen more than just a mad woman she went bonkers
I could not handle the shit, easier to hide away from the world
More years pass shit was just getting crazier by the year
Time has come to make a brake for it she has the keys
All windows screwed down, there is no way out of here

Every time I thought of something she had me covered
My belongings went missing, all my good stuff
then it would come back years latter, fuck you are one sick cunt
I took the keys on the 16th the day before the deed
I'm done today 17th August 2007 1:30am in winter

While you slept I unlocked the door and ran flat out
Climbed fences, kept my self hidden in the moon lit night
Damn it was so fucking cold, teeth chattering like crazy
I lived in fear for so long you used that against me
So today 10 years on I've got one thing to say

I have truly grown so much, I have no hate towards you
Even though I should hate you well I'm not giving you that
You took advantage of me and my youth and how green I was
You read me like a book and knew clearly I could not take yelling

Shouting, rage, overpowering, struggling with PTSD
I was so overwhelmed by what I had been through
I still struggle with other things that I have been through as well
So all I'm going to say now is one thing in my life has worked out
And that one thing has nothing to do with you

Sincerely me