Just Me

I just want someone to talk to me.
You know that closeness with a person?
Just able to say everything
and feel utterly bare
and not worry.

I feel lonely surrounded by people
because I want closeness
and hate vulnerability.
I push too hard and not hard enough
I'm the midpoint between everything and nothing at all.

Should I apologise? no.
but I do anyway because it's something to say.
I might even say sorry for something that happened years ago
so that we can remember it
or I feel something other than blankness.