Depression

She haunts my every steps that I’m afraid to look back,
I drift through this world with my head is down not up,
As go around I show a smile but it is fake,
But to hide my pain and not show any discomfort, it’s the only way,
I live believing that I am dreaming because of reality I’m afraid,
Every day is a struggle just to stay sane,
My spirit may seem that it is free but yet I’m confined,
Outside I show that it’s all bright but it’s a light I cannot find,
Inside my dark abyss, my heart is a lonely island where my soul lies,
A helpless castaway that his SOS are my unheard cries,
As much as I fight it away, I can’t seem to defeat,
One day I am fine but all of nowhere it sneak up on me,
I keep my curtains shut and my door locked,
I let no one in and my lights are out,  
She has me kept in a corner that it’s my prison,
That I can’t break free and no one listens,
She rips through my mind that makes me believe I’m nobody,
She injects my vein with toxic that ravishes my body,
She’s taken my strength and making me weak,
Absorbing my mind that I just can’t think,
I just want to scream but my voice has no sound,
I just want to be but I’m lost and I’ll never be found,
I don’t know what I feel so I keep it inside,
I’m tired of being I don’t want these life,
In the mirror I see a man with no eyes,
Pain, Sadness and Darkness together combined,
She’s has found a home and don’t want to leave,
She goes in and out, all she does is tease,
I can’t get rid of her, she is here to stay,
She’s taken over completely, Depression her name.