I Watch Her

I Watch Her


Hit me
Go on hit me
I hear her cry
As she stands
Stock still
With her arms
By her side

As her chin tilts
In defiance
Squinting through
Blackened eyes
Blood on her lip's
As she cowers inside

You see she tries to
Be Strong
And she tries to be
Fearless
But she falls for
Men who just
Couldn't care less

When all alone
All she does is cry
As she watches the
Clock
Another minute
Drifts by

And when she
Walks out the door
Smile plastered on
Her face
She's counting the
Second's until
She can leave
This place

Because no-one care's
About a girl like her
All alone in this
World
Not rich
Not poor

Just another face
In an endless stream
Of people fighting
To live out their
Dreams
What's another bruise
What's another battle
When people rush home
To eat what's on
Their table

She's losing weight
Again
Not eaten in day's
She's long since
Lost hope
Don't notice
Hunger pain's

Try's not to look
At other men
Scared of being
Used
And beaten again
She light's up her
Joint
Her mind drifting
Away
The only way that
She can ease
Her pain

No money coming in
And no where  to turn
She cut's up her Leg's
Feel's the pain and
The burn
It gives her
Control of a
Piece of hr life
But the release
It is fleeting
Like a roll of the dice

So broken
Her mind
And her body too
When she look's in
The mirror
You realise
It's you
Staring back
At a face
You no longer
Recognise
So you pick up
The pill's
With tears in your eye's

How did I
Get here
How did I
Not see
That the
Girl I I've been
Watching
Turned out to be
Me

And there's no
Turning back
You can't Change
What's done
So I swallow the pill's
and pick up
The gun

The cold steel in my
Mouth
I touch the tip with
My tongue
and I pull the trigger
Release
I am done

Now I am floating
Away
To a place that's unknown
and I try to
Reach out for
That place
That was home

You see I did
Not want to die
I just did
Not see
That if I
Opened my mouth
I could have been
Free

Being Scared of the
Pain
And scared to let go
Staying stuck
In your rut
Believed the word's
I was told

But now it's too late
and I must move
On
I once had hope
But now it's just
Gone
As my body it rot's
And my soul
It flies free

If only I had realised
that girl
She was me