SAD

Lost in transparent death
eaten by absence
alone and hurt
missing all of everything not here
wishing to want it
time to feed
sucking out the drops of life
left in the old bodies  
filling my holes with their glue
cuddling the darkness
blade against my throat
memories of you keep me from slicing
memories of you keep me pushing
self harm keeps me in check
checking with the light if there's blood yet
not yet but then i could finally see
and escape this hole