Between Love and Hate

I love you mommy
Why do you break promises and lie to me
I'm tired of the lies
My eyes are all out of cries
You're supposed to chase away my fears
Not leave me alone with my tears
I love you but I hate you too
Why do I feel this way about you
I want you near but you're always gone
Leaving me alone in our broken home
You say I'm a failure and I'm this and that
But it's no different than you out smoking crack
Mom I love you but I hate you too
I hate the way I feel about you
For as long as I can remember my life"s been hell
Now I'm writing this from my prison cell
Yet once again I failed
I got in some deep shit expecting you to atleast yell
But I haven't even gotten a letter in the mail
I hate you but I love you too
Even inspite of the hell you've put me through