Hugging loneliness

 
It’s not what I said that is keeping me awake;
It's all those words that I just could never say.
I have waited too long to find myself a place
And now time is all out of luck and I am at my grave.  


Here I stand looking backwards;
Empty spaces, empty Tracey’s…lost for words.  
The words I never said are all I regret.
The love I never found; the love that I left…
Behind my eyes there hides a smile,
But it is deep down inside my soul.
All you hear are the lies,
When I truly confide,
But the truth is all I ever said and now I am too old.
Too old to change, too late to make you believe;
If you cannot see, then please leave.  


If by now you do not know,
Then go.
Leave me alone,
With my sorrow.  


I have tried so hard to convince you this is no lie,
But by your side I do not lie.
Through your tears of goodbye,
You cannot see the rivers that I cry.  


The trail you leave already fades,
With each and every painful day
And all those words I never had the chance to say,
Are lost with me…
 
And I am left alone with my pain.  


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