Cessation

I was calm, content
Then I felt anger
And had to vent
In my head I said
These are not your emotions
They are someone else's
But yet as I reflect
Like a mirror, the mind
It feels like waves sometimes
What he said resonated in me
My vibration was a scary tone
I felt the anger in my head my chest
And all my extremities
Anger, negative thoughts
Are wicked enemies
But I cannot deny
These emotions are in me
I open my third eye to see
Recovery recovery
How we all want it not
To define what is me
I've learned to fear the rooms
God how I love to trip on shrooms
But in these rooms is a way
To live again someday
The first time I went to AA
It drove me to buy a bottle right after
and get drunk that night  
and the next day
Now some of you will say
I felt like that too
Or probably did it too
But yet we keep coming
Searching for something
Called cessation cessation
To be free of the suffering
Of our demons, the weakness
That once gave us meaning
In truth my anger is because I'm afraid
Fearful of myself
This destiny I've made