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Revenge of The Fat Girl

Like every woman          
in the world          
there were times I was thin          
there were times I was fat          
and everything in between.          
         
Lamenting over          
stretch-marks          
cellulite          
love-handles          
saddlebags          
fat arms          
big thighs          
         
or in contrast          
visible ribs          
no curves          
clothes that don't fit          
thinning hair          
no breasts          
no ass          
         
I have been called          
anorexic skeleton          
and        
pretty but too chubby          
I've been a size 0          
and a size 12          
     
I was a cross country runner          
dancer and rider          
and over-stressed college student          
eating too late over homework -          
but I was always a woman.          
         
I have had men want me          
and other men repulsed by me.          
         
I lost sixty pounds          
thinking it would fix          
all the insecurities          
believing if I became          
the thin woman          
I felt I could be          
everything would be fine.          
         
Size 6:      
for many the perfect          
size.          
I'm healthy and in control          
on the outside,          
but the inside I'm as weak          
as before.          
         
The only real pleasure I get          
is this intense rage I feel          
from every man who looks          
in my direction          
asks my number          
or my relationship status.          
         
You've seen me at this bar before          
or at this restaurant          
You've seen me at the library          
or at this theatre.          
I have been here this whole time      
though you never noticed me.          
         
But you have seen me          
because I have seen you a thousand          
times and your shallow ugliness          
is crystal clear to me now.          
         
Where were you          
with your compliments          
and pleasantries before          
where were you          
with the flirty conversation          
and the witty comebacks?          
         
         
You never saw me          
but I saw you all.          
Now when you come          
around I just laugh.          
         
"I've never seen you          
here before," you say.          
"Are you new to the area,"          
you ask.          
         
And that is when I have my revenge.          
         

I smile and walk away.          
You are all vain pigs          
and I'm not here to play.
Written by TheMuses22 (Muse22)
Published | Edited 13th Jul 2017
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