Time for Never

It is 2am and I am wide awake  
Can't shut down my racing thoughts  
How much more can I take  
Sometimes it's all my fault  
The more my mind wanders  
Deeper in anxiety I fall  
Unable to regain control  
I am slowly killing us all  
Got to do this  
But not until that  
Is there ever an end  
Help is all I ask  
Reliving past hurts  
Fearing new ones in the future  
Scared of right now  
I am fading much sooner  
Struck down by reality  
I am only getting older  
Destined for failure  
Young love is really over  
When did it happen  
That I came to resent  
My partner for life  
The feelings just went  
Floating in your drink  
Hurry, you got to have another  
I am always second best when  
alcohol and liquor are your lovers  
Even though you're not violent  
And when drunk, rarely mean  
Can you not feel the change  
Love faded too fast it seems  
No hello, good bye, no how was your day  
And never a 'love you'  
You don't care if I stay  
I am a ghost floating in my home  
I try to let go  
We need on our own  
I am in a full blown panic mode  
Thinking of all the wasted years  
I just wanted your attention  
But you give it to beer  
I won't daydream about a new life forever  
It will kill me if I do  
You are always suspicious  
Maybe I just no longer love you  
Empty circles of gold  
The rings have been gone  
Long since misplaced  
It is time to give up this home  
Take what you want  
Tell whatever makes you feel better  
I don't think I can do this anymore  
It is time for that never