Analytical Chaos

Deep breaths of air
Heating the flare ups
Tying the hair up
Pacing back and forth
on chaotic turf
Unruly earth
Firing her needs beneath my feet
Grass beneath
dirt deep
Devouring nutrients through the veins in which it feeds
Thoughts flowing at an alarming pace
Heart beating to its own race
Every cerebral creation harder to face
Panic in full attack mode

                    You know that line you love?
                    That one you keep thinking of...
   Staying in the back of your mental space
   Giving you a secret hiding place,
                         A universal getaway
                   An intellectual hideaway....

I hold on to it so tight....
Protect it with such fight,
Fear ends up being the companion that stays to warm my nights

Scripts getting thrown away,
Asked the god-dess to soothe my way
Retract the turmoil,
bury it deep in the soil
The zombie like state of mind is all they use to mend
They wrote me poison with their pens
Tried to feed me numbing sensations
Not knowing that mute emotion was the trigger to my hallucinations
My ego tisked at the radical idea of changing my brain

My brain?

I would be insane to let them be so vain

You dare to touch in my sane?

Where I say I'm just a plane old Mary Jane
Whose to smart for the streets so it's impossible to play the game
Pawned off in one to many ways
Life twisted into a Rubix cube,
Shoveling feelings in all directions,
The maze turning different colors in each reflection
And the desire to soothe ended up watching me walk the other direction  

Deep breathes
That's the sedation
Ink is the medication

Excuse me while I inject myself with self love and revelations

Because I am my own temptation
Written by Lyrical_Aptitude
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