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Yesterday Tomorrow
If I could have my time over again
I am not sure who or what I’d be
Regret is just a part of existence
Hindsight utterly useless
Life is just too fuckin hard
Slowly I am loosing your love
Kiss by kiss, hug by hug
Those special smiles
Replaced by deep sighs
That gentleness of touches
Finger tip feels, sweet pinches
No longer seem to happen
Harsh words and insults
Desperate arguments
Hate now building
A head of steam
Tussles and tears
Rounds of fighting
Nobody really wins
Painful and endless
No more making up
Endless bouts of silence
Interrupted only by coffee
Dear love post it notes
Becoming dear Johnesque
Now just a matter of time
Before I lose you
Before love’s light
Is finally extinguished
If I could have my time over again
I would choose not to fall in love with you
For no greater pain I have known
Than the pain of you
Falling out of love
With me
Published 1st Jul 2017
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1st Jul 2017 8:05pm
This is such a sad write, David. It's very painful to watch an emotional train wreck about to happen. You almost want to scream, "Pull the Trigger ALREADY!"
That final stanza is a real heart-jerker.
That final stanza is a real heart-jerker.
2nd Jul 2017 4:08pm
indeed!, it's even more distressing because it happens in slow motion. I am not sure this is a poem people can like, but if you find it moving I am happy with that - thank you :-)
1st Jul 2017 8:11pm
David this write breaks my heart I fear losing my loved one too..
so this write hit home..
love you my dear friend..
I hope things turn for the better..
hugs Brenda
so this write hit home..
love you my dear friend..
I hope things turn for the better..
hugs Brenda
2nd Jul 2017 10:04pm
do you want to know what inspired this write? - ok I'll tell you (lol) I was listening to the radio whilst eating lunch and on came the country classic "Ruby, don't take your love to town." - I wrote two poems one that you have just read and a crazy angry rant - I am glad I went with the softer one :-) big hugs :-)
2nd Jul 2017 5:50am
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2nd Jul 2017 2:20pm
It's so deeply painful when you have to watch the one you love slowly turn away from the love you built together. The words on this page drip like tears, top to bottom. So deeply sad
2nd Jul 2017 10:07pm
I think it's one of the saddest subjects I have written about that didn't turn out to be a hate filled rant :-) thank you for your read and understanding :-)
2nd Jul 2017 7:05pm
David....
The pain within your piece is so poignant...so keenly felt throughout! You have an outstanding ability to express intense feelings....in a style that permits your readers to experience/(identify with) similar emotional reactions/( responses) for themselves. This one leaves more than a few little tears n my heart....
I just want to take your hand....or hug you... and tell you that i am hoping that all will become a bit easier--very soon!!
Bright Blessings to You!
The pain within your piece is so poignant...so keenly felt throughout! You have an outstanding ability to express intense feelings....in a style that permits your readers to experience/(identify with) similar emotional reactions/( responses) for themselves. This one leaves more than a few little tears n my heart....
I just want to take your hand....or hug you... and tell you that i am hoping that all will become a bit easier--very soon!!
Bright Blessings to You!
2nd Jul 2017 10:10pm
thank you. you are such a sweetheart :-) I always write in hope that other people get it. I sometimes feel guilty when posting such poems as I hate the idea of causing somebody else pain or sadness :-( 1000 ehugs on their way:-)
Anonymous
2nd Jul 2017 7:49pm
Oh fucking hell, David...this without any exaggeration, brought me to tears from mid first stanza and I was a bloody mess at the end...endless hugs and kisses sent to you my friend...I'm afraid that's all I can say...you have left me at a loss for adequate words...
xoxo Taryn
xoxo Taryn
2nd Jul 2017 10:13pm
I am sorry, I didn't mean to cause you pain - I hope you will be ok. I had to write this one because it was in their demanding to be written - That's my excuse and I'm sticking to it (lol) sending you 1.000.000 ehugs :-)
Anonymous
3rd Jul 2017 00:13am
No need for sorry...when they need to be spilled, so mote it be...I understand...I hope the same for you sweetie...hugs back atcha xoxoxo
2nd Jul 2017 10:01pm
2nd Jul 2017 10:14pm
4th Jul 2017 1:18pm
Oh how this yanks at my heart strings. Your sadness, so apparent. I am sending virtual hugs and wishing you courage. My wish for you when all is said and done that you continue to have hope that life unfolds exactly as it should and there is a reason for your sadness. However unkind it may be now, allow your heart to remain open to possibilities.
"New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings." ~ Lao Tzu
Much love dear.
"New beginnings are often disguised as painful endings." ~ Lao Tzu
Much love dear.
4th Jul 2017 4:28pm
I was really touched by your response, touched and moved - your comments were wise and true, but more important than that they were heartfelt - once I got over the lump in my throat I felt a lot more positive - thank you seems somewhat inadequate, but thank you anyway :-)
