Rip

It's been 3 years without you by my side,
I still remember the times that we used to share
before you became so sick
and spent most of your days in the intensive care.
 
I remember it like it was my last dream
I was in 7th grade and at netball practice.
My mom came early, and I saw the worry in her face
and said she just came back from the hospital.
 
She said you aren't doing well we needed to go back,
when we arrived, I ran into your room.
And then I saw my family too,
but just then I should've knew.
 
I walked over to your side
never have I seen you so relaxed and so quiet.
Yet you're pale as can be,
I grab your ice cold hands
and looked back at my gran, and saw the tears running down her cheeks.
 
Damn, I was still too small to understand,
all that i knew was that it was bad and was my last time seeing you.
I dropped to the floor, I've never cried this hard before,
you were so strong how could you have just let go.
 
Leaving your beloved wife, all so sick,  when she needed you most
leaving your daughter whose about to go through a divorce
Cause her husband cheated on her with another whore
oh wait that whore is my mom...
 
I probably shouldnt have said that
but yet again i couldnt really care
I'm not being rude
it's only the truth.
 
See, I used to look up to you, but you left us
and you aint ever coming back
its too late now.
Probably looking down on us with a crooked smile
 
Ever since you left us
everything kept on getting deeper,
especially the cuts on my wrist
shit ain't getting any easier
 
But I wish you could visit us from heaven just for a second,
cause I know I would've made you proud
I hope you know deep down, that I love you more than you know
and i'd do anything to get to see you again
 
But I know you in a better place and wouldn't want to come back,
I wouldn't blame you
I'm sick and tired of this place too
but don't worry, go wait at the golden gate
cause im coming to see you
real soon.