Sleeping Away

The day begins  
after a drink of pins
The night speaks
Only in tounges, only for me to hear
At this time I find myself confused
and disoriented
Am I awake?
 I'm frightened and scared
To think, of this life
I'm tormented beyond release.
why can I just be asleep
...Where life is at least bearable
why can I be asleep
So I many forget this world
and everything in it
not too many things frighten me
But, being conscious makes my spine crawl
I live in an odd world where nothing makes sense
yet, I live it...
I'm lost in time and drowning in my own pessimistic mind.
forever regretting. forever trying to just sleep it all away.