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2nd letter to my Dad
I need to write to you Dad to try and explain what I am feeling,
I am feeling a little lost when it comes to you and me
I am trying to feel like your Son but I can't feel any connection to you
like a Dad and Son should I am trying to be a man about this and not a Boy
I am trying to do this in the only way I know how to do
Trying to explain how I feel is really hard trying to explain
a lot has happened to me over the years
when I needed your guidance Dad you was not there
I am not blaming you for not being there
I also could of made some sort of contact with you
over the years it's not all your fault
I have also tried to say I love you but I can't I don't feel it
40 years without a Father, now I have seen you for 8 days once in the last 4 years it is not that you have done something wrong
I just feel like I am in the middle of what you have with your other sons
this letter has been a long time coming
it is not meant to make you upset
it is so you can sort of see it from where I am coming from
I am a Son that needed his Father a long time ago
I had to say good bye to my kids from overseas
I know how hard that was for me to do
so for me it is a little confusing when you won't talk about the past my past
like when I was a child and when Mum was younger
I know the story's that Mum had told me and
I still don't feel that I fit in to this family
I am not sure if you understand what I am trying to say to you
like when you don't call for a while
I am not saying I have not heard from Dad lately
yes Family is important that is true
Mine was taken from me it hurt so bad
I needed your guidance now that's gone
I have a new Family now that need me I am a Dad too.
Now he has past so much left unsaid, sad but true
I am feeling a little lost when it comes to you and me
I am trying to feel like your Son but I can't feel any connection to you
like a Dad and Son should I am trying to be a man about this and not a Boy
I am trying to do this in the only way I know how to do
Trying to explain how I feel is really hard trying to explain
a lot has happened to me over the years
when I needed your guidance Dad you was not there
I am not blaming you for not being there
I also could of made some sort of contact with you
over the years it's not all your fault
I have also tried to say I love you but I can't I don't feel it
40 years without a Father, now I have seen you for 8 days once in the last 4 years it is not that you have done something wrong
I just feel like I am in the middle of what you have with your other sons
this letter has been a long time coming
it is not meant to make you upset
it is so you can sort of see it from where I am coming from
I am a Son that needed his Father a long time ago
I had to say good bye to my kids from overseas
I know how hard that was for me to do
so for me it is a little confusing when you won't talk about the past my past
like when I was a child and when Mum was younger
I know the story's that Mum had told me and
I still don't feel that I fit in to this family
I am not sure if you understand what I am trying to say to you
like when you don't call for a while
I am not saying I have not heard from Dad lately
yes Family is important that is true
Mine was taken from me it hurt so bad
I needed your guidance now that's gone
I have a new Family now that need me I am a Dad too.
Now he has past so much left unsaid, sad but true
Published 22nd Jun 2017
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22nd Jun 2017 1:53am
This is possibly emotional neglect from your Father, intentional or not, that's what it sounds like. Any social worker would probably tell you the same. Your situation sadly is not a unique one. We often shrug our shoulders & simply say, 'It doesn't matter.' when in fact, it really does.This is a way of giving the wrongdoing some justification. Families are supposed to come together in times of crisis & you have clearly reached that stage. It might feel awkward but wouldn't it be great if you could just have a beer with your Dad? Sounds like he may not know what to say, emotionally, that's why he's lost for words? You should perhaps start the ball rolling by explaining in a letter, what is happening in your life right now to your Dad. Once you have outlined all of the important points, a conversation might then be easier. I do wish you well.
23rd Jun 2017 00:06am
We did catch up only once for 8 days I stayed at his place we had a beer together played pool but no matter how hard I tried there was no connection not as father and son, I wished for that day to come and when it did I wished that it never happened, I went there with an open mind but he was the man that my mother had told me all about, but all in all I'm glad that this part of my life is over as he past a few years ago now, Thank you for the read and comment. 😊
23rd Jun 2017 11:13pm
24th Jun 2017 1:51pm
