Drowning

My demons might conquer me
But i still hold on
Nobody sees
How much I'm truly struggling
I'm in more pain than I am willing to admit
I feel so lost
And so so damaged
I need some spiritual healing
If it can happen to them
Then why not me
I doubt everything
That I may not see
I feel weak minded
And weak spirited
My soul feels as if it is slowly crushing
the very innocence out of me
Nothing seems right
Everything is scary
I wish i can hide
I want my shell back before it's too late
Please
Someone help me
I want my demons to go away