My Resurrection

It's been five months since you came around
Then suddenly you reappeared into the picture as you sent me a message wanting to see me again.
So many memories of us came to mind, I felt hurt and I felt pain.
I didn't know how I could ever face you when you've hurt me time after time.
I couldn't let myself be caught up in your love game after everything you've done to me.
I remembered the nights I cried myself to sleep when you wouldn't answer my calls or
those times when you would make me go oh so crazy from your confusing stories.
You changed me,
You made me different from what I was.
I was addicted to your love drug and I needed to go to rehab by the time I was done.
Every time you messed with my heart I felt like I've been shot with a gun to end up left dying on the cold floor.
That's the pain I felt whenever I was left curled up in a ball crying to myself, hoping, wishing that somebody would be there for me when that somebody should've been you, well tell me where were you when I needed you?.
When the going got tough you gave up while I stayed and wanted to fight through the thick and thin with you.
I thought you'd be my ride or die, be in it with me for life but instead you lied through your teeth and became the man that I never knew existed better yet you were barely a man to begin with.
I fell so deep in love with you and thought we'd be together for all time,
You told so me so many things that were so untrue,
But now I'm a new me and feel forever free.
You can't ever hurt me, you won't ever hurt me.
I am rejuvenated, I am cleansed of all the toxins you filled me up with.
I am back stronger, I am forever.
You will never get the best of me.
You'll now get to feel how I felt all those sleepless nights I cried for you, every time I apologized when I knew in the back of my mind you were wrong not me,
When I lost my mind because of you and bent over backwards for you, would take a bullet for you, take a bat to the back for you, jump off a cliff for you when you wouldn't even do the same.
So now you'll feel my pain as I won't be calling you or crying out your name.
'Cause your memory to me faded along with us.
As this is my resurrection.