My Fantasy

Right now I'm laying in my bed
Holding onto a small blue owl from our beginning
When everything came and went so easily
When we were at our peak.
Right now I hAve everything you have ever given to me
In a bag on my desk and it's laughing at me
Haunting me with memories of summer and drives
Haunting me with date nights and long texts
Right now I can smell your cologne
Midnight from around December
Right when I first noticed us changing
When I never thought it would get this far
Right now I have goosebumps and black tears
Mixing in, destroying the blue fur
Hearing your voice saying everything I want to hear
Wishing that it was all true
Right now I finished my second pack
Wishing you were here to scold me
Missing the way you held me
Knowing you don't want me like before
Right now I came to an end
I'm the one that dents my relations
My fantasy of having a happy ending is just that
Someday I'll get there, but today is not the day.