concrete city

concrete city            
concrete purgatory                                  
concrete anguish
your down                                                                           f                                                                            a                                                                  
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                                             your death

every street i ramble into i get lost in
 every floor the elevator  stops on i get lost on
the exit sign burns red and the ivory is yellowed
 the staircase swallows loudly
then drones  
on
where the diagram says you’re here
i get lost there  too


im lost in the whir of confusion inside my head
and car noises
and predator junctions
 and sunken feelings not numbed dulled or erased by alcohol

im lost in cathedral crowds
in responsorial psalms
and palm sunday palms
 and confession booth hail marys

the underpass echoes with shouts of children lost inside themselves
i choke and trip on something dead on the spot i first lost myself in
 before i proceeded to lose myself a million more times in every street
and every alley
and every girl
and every lamp post that cries in the rain  


the city howls feeling my pain

i look up into the sky in the rain
and drown
 inside
 myself.