i miss you

i miss you so damn much.
now that your gone my life is fucked.
mama why did you leave me.
when i say i hurt everyday of my life believe me.
the thing that hurts me tha most.
is i can't see you and hug you that hurts the most.
i just wish i coulda said i loved you before ya left.
now my souls forever haunted by ya death.
but i know we'll be together soon.
it could be noon or on a full moon.
i'd rather you got to live and let me die.
so bobby could have you and not cry.
but no it ain't happen that way.
and the past is where it stay.
i guess god loved you more.
so your with him while i'm here prayin' on this cold concrete floor.
i got ya pic in a nice frame on my night stand.
everyday that i look at it i remember back to when ya held my hand.
back in south carolina playin' in the snow.
all the memories i will never let them go.
i will dwell on them till i die.
then with you in heaven i'll no longer cry.
mom i need you,i don't see how i could live this long without you.
just know that until i take my last breath............"i'll miss you"

granny i miss you so much too.
i know you loved me as much as i loved you.
now your with jesus in heaven.
i'm left here without you on my knees prayin'.
i remember back when you rented that condo on the beach.
all the family there and me by your side like a leech.
i can't believe that your gone.
all i can do now is talk to you in a song.
i don't know why everyone i know leaves me in death.
i'm losin' my mind,i'm losin' my breath.
i know i wasn't the perfect grandson.
at least i was your grandson and the love we had weighed over a ton.
i can't wait to see your face again.
leave this earth leave this sin.
nothing or no one can stop our never dyin' love for each other.
alot of love from me and my brother bobby.
i love you granny i love you mom i pray in death your who i see.
now that your gone i cry many tears.
now that your gone death i do not fear.
no one ever cared about me or whut i do.
but i do know that tha ones that did were you two................."i miss you"

why do i sit here and cry.
i cry cuz' tha 2 most important ladies in this world are out of my life.
they left me to be with jesus.
all the hurt and pain i go through i can't understand this.
i don't care if anyone else believes this my minds in a sedated bliss.
love is the only thing that makes me feel happy.
without love i don't wanna be.
dear mama,dear granny i love you both for all eternity.
the 2 of you i can't wait to see.
i'll never forget the good times or the bad times.
look into my heart and it's love you'll find.
if it weren't for my faith in god i'd already be joinin' you.
all i need is my faith in god and alot of love but soon i'll be joinin' you.
just wish i could be with you both now.
i know when i speak to you i don't need to be loud.
granny forgive me for all my lies.
mom forgive me for my disrespect i'm payin' for it all now as i sit and cry.
i know i ain't perfect.
i'm more of a defect.
mom,granny i love you,i miss you i immortalize you in my mind the 2 of you i'll always love and miss you..........."i miss you"