ugly sister (I love you challenge)

blood drips
wrist to sink
unravels into blossoms
when it hits the water
beautiful people deserve
lots of red roses

you tell me about the pain
the pain of being beautiful
the eyes that follow you
you poor thing
you can't tell if he likes you for you
or what's between your skinny legs

but you don't know
what it's like to be ugly
when a stranger's stare
lasts too long to be polite
knowing I turn his stomach
not his head

I want to tell you this
I want to tell you
there are worse things than being
beautiful
there is paralyzing ugly
a mutilation of the line
along my jaw
no prettily-colored eyes
justify my pale color
my deep voice resonates
in a manner less than
feminine

but you don't understand
that as long as I live
I will do so in your shadow
the ugly friend, the unfortunate
sister
lucky she's smart
because God just doesn't smile through her
so I choose not to
live
because in dying
I can hide
in my death
I am finally
free of you