Where do I belong?

You will never love me like you love them
they will never know what it feels like, at the very bottom
It is my reality
That being here gives you anxiety
On the the daily,
through out the week
Fake out the pain my heart will slowly leak until every bit is drained
You wish I never would have complained
about who I am but I can never actually be
You will never admit that I share blood with your entire family
30 years is way too long
To feel alone like you will never quite belong
To any family that will ever give a fuck
All by myself in this world I am stuck
between a rock and a hard place
I worked so hard for your love but I remain a disgrace
I should have never been given life
You think of this when you look at your wife.